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Saturday, 12 January 2019

Realistic 2019 New Year's Resolutions

I've always been a fan of reading what's on someone's resolution list (not because I'm nosy.... well, maybe because I'm nosy) because it inspires me a little more and sometimes, it gives me ideas and things I never really thought about achieving. So, as tacky as it is, I still quite like going through people's list but I don't really like creating my own.

I would normally do a post about "highlights of 2018" or a look back at the year but thinking of it, I'm just glad I made it through 2018 alive. 2018 for me was scattered - difficult, messy, unorganized, confusing, unattractive. But I do have some beautiful moments too, in terms of self-development and self-improvement.

Anyway, I've sat down and thought about some of the things I'd like to focus more on this year. A more realistic one, if I might add, because things like swearing less - probably ain't f*cking happening any time soon.

1) Concentrate on my health

Because goddammit, I'm going to hit 30 soon. F*ck!

2) Read more

Books, articles, blogs, magazines

3) Work hard, play hard 

I need to find the balance between the two. I'm still learning but I'll get there

4) Spread positive vibes as much as I can 

And also surround myself with good vibes whenever I can

5) Follow the wave and go with the flow 

In other words, I'm not going to take myself and life too seriously this year because it got me nowhere last 2 years

Of course I do have a few other personal goals of my own and I will use all my willpower to get them but I won't get disappointed if I don't achieve them because I know for a fact that I will give it my 101%.

So, Happy 2019 everyone. Cheers 

Wednesday, 9 January 2019

4 Places on My Travel Bucket List 2019

I've been reading a few travel bucket lists from various bloggers and if you have been following my blog for some time, you would know that "travel bucket list" post is a tradition around this space :)

However, I don't know if I mentioned anything about this yet but last year, I made it a priority to travel every month as it was one of my New Year's resolutions. But towards the end of it, I didn't quite enjoy it anymore because it felt more like a chore than a vacation. So this year, travelling is not really a MUST for me. However, that doesn't mean that I'm not going to travel and go places.

Trust me, thinking of places to go and creating a bucket list gets me excited all the time. After all, no one should be in one spot for the rest of their lives. Places are meant to be visited, cities are meant to be seen, countries are meant to be traveled to.

1) Terengganu (Malaysia) 

Although I love travelling away from my own country, I do feel like there are still a lot of places I'd like to visit locally. It also makes it more do-able for me. So, road trips, here I come.

2) Vietnam 

Last year, I've only managed to visit this beautiful country once and I fell in love with the place and the food instantly (well, the food mostly, not going to lie). So, I will be returning to Vietnam for a few more visits in the coming months.

3) Hong Kong 

It's been a while (more like 20 years) since I was here. It's time to create new memories.

4) Maldives 

Because it's the Maldives!

What's on your travel bucket list 2019? 

Thursday, 3 January 2019

Goodbye 2018, Hello 2019

So, here it is. 2018 in a f*cking nutshell. 

This year, I questioned myself the most. Not because of quarter-life crisis (which, trust me, is a thing!) and not because I'm living in the snowflake generation (which, yes, is also a thing!). I know for a fact that everyone will go/have been through this phase where all you do is question everything about yourself - what you're doing, how you're feeling, why you're feeling the things you feel. It's an ongoing process.

Most times, I felt like a lost soul walking on the streets. I felt dead inside most days yet I'm not even sure how I managed to pull myself back up and put myself back together. But here's the fact, YOU JUST DO.

No matter how bad things are in life, nothing is ever as bad as it seems. You will always be stronger than you think. 

At the beginning of the year (2018), I wrote in my diary some of the things I'd like to achieve throughout the year. You could say it was a bit of a mixed bag when it came to determining my annual goals. And for the most part, I've achieved it. You see, this year I wanted to travel every single month. I don't know why I made that a priority but it was just something I really wanted to do at the beginning of the year. And so, I started planning and budgeting for this plan.

Of course, my other small goals were to prioritize my family and friends and my health which I can tick off my list. However, if you asked me if I've ticked off any "BIG LIFE MILESTONES", the answer is NO. HELL TO THE NO. One of my biggest resolutions this year is to publish my book, which I am far from doing.

Often, when I scroll through Instagram or social media, I wonder how much of it is true - the smiles, the posts. Don't get me wrong - social media platforms are great, I get inspired from looking through food and fitness posts, etc... It motivates me in a way. However, me - being a human being - I realized that I hit rock bottom back in September when I started comparing myself and my life to those of others. I don't think I've ever been in that position I was in in my entire 26 years of living.

It took me a whole month to crawl out of depression. And right now, honestly, I am proud of myself and proud to say I have survived this situation.

The amount of times I've ran to my parents and family members this year taught me one thing: Family is a tricky thing. Appreciate them when you still have them. 

The most difficult pill I had to swallow this year was learning how to pick myself back up and how to cope without the people whom I thought would be in my life for a long time. I had to realize that you have to do shit for yourself because the only person that will put you back on your two feet is you.

When people say life is a roller coaster, this year was definitely it for me. I started off strong in January and things fell apart in June. I got back up in July only to fall into a deeper hole in September. Now finally, I've learned to accept this term. Life is a goddamn f*cking roller coaster and it can be amazing. It all comes down to you and how you choose to see your battles and obstacles.

For 2019, I'm not going to make any major resolutions because f*ck that shit. I'm going to go with whatever flow there is and not take life too seriously. In all honesty, it's also because I haven't thought of any resolutions yet :P

May all of us have a good year ahead! We're all strong people. We can go through anything. 
Happy New Year x