10 Highlights of 2020

 This year has been... different... to say the very least. 

When the first lockdown happened back in Mar/Apr, I was certain that nothing good would come out the year anymore. I was already having a very tough time dealing with everything that was happening around me and lockdown didn't make things easier. 

Like everyone and everywhere in the world, I was forced to spend more time with myself. I was forced to be in isolation. I was forced to live life very differently. My routine and my life changed immensely. I didn't know how to adapt to things that quickly. I didn't know how to appreciate my extra time off. I was forced to learn all these new things. 

While all of that sounds scary, it was also an adventure. 2020 has been a roller coaster for everyone. However, in such difficult times, I am grateful that I still have my amazing jobs. I am thankful that my friends and family and myself are safe. A lot of people say that 2020 is bad news. While it is quite true, but there are some good things that came out of this. 

Our earth was taking time to heal from all sorts of pollution. Some are fortunate enough to spend more time with loved ones. Some are fortunate enough to work from the comfort of their own homes.

On the not so fortunate note, some lost their jobs. Some lost their businesses. Some lost their families/loved ones. It's a heartbreaking year, I'm not going to lie. I've lost people too this year.

However, as I was pondering on all the events that took place for the past 12 months, I've managed to think of 10 highlights for this year. 

1. I was fortunate enough to appear on TV twice

2. I conducted and assisted my first ever NLP course back in September

3. At this age, I was certain that it would be more difficult to make new friends but I've managed to meet 2 amazing people

4. I got to nurture my current friendships 

5. I managed to cut off toxic people, people who claim that I am their girl friend, babe, best friend, etc...

6. I know this is probably an awful thing to say but I got out of a turbulent relationship. Don't get me wrong, no love was lost there. No hate whatsoever. It was just time. And in a weird way, I feel like I've gotten a part of myself back

7. After months of consideration, I finally accepted that I was the problem of my financial status. Because ever since lockdown, I've managed to save money and live comfortably for the rest of the year

8. One great thing about lockdown is I've finally taken my workout seriously and so, managed to lose some weight and build muscles

9. I got to see my family twice this year which was amazing because normally, it's once a year. And because of the pandemic, we communicate on FaceTime more often. I love that

10. In a very long time, I've finally put me first. No relationships, nothing. It's just me. I took time off to read, learn new recipes, glow up for myself, not for anyone else

In other words, I've managed to learn more about myself this year. I've gone through tough times mostly alone. I came out of the situations stronger. So, no matter what happens in the next year, tough times don't last forever. You'll get through this. We will all get through this together. 

Happy New Year, everyone! Stay safe x

2010 VS. 2020

Once upon a time, my blog used to be my everything. My one and only hobby was blogging. I'm actually talking about 10 years ago which was when I started this blog. I sort of fell out of touch with it these past 2 years. 

However, I have been reflecting on my life recently. I remember a time when blogging made me feel comfortable and happy. Hence, I've decided to revisit that happy place. So, here I am now. 

I'm not too sure if this makes sense to any of you but I feel like not much has happened in the past 10 years but at the same time, so many things have happened that changed me and shaped me into who I am today. 

Whilst reflecting and looking back on my life and the events that happened since 2010, I've come to realize 5 major things about myself and my life. To be really honest with you, even January 2020 seems like a distant memory - what more to say January 2010. But here we go.

2010 (I was about to start college)

1) I thought all the friends I had then will last forever. I've managed to build a small "fan-base". I had countless groups of friends. Whatever my friends told me seemed to have more power over what my family told me. I was obsessed with having many friends (just as a lot of teenagers out there, because the more friends you have, the more popular you are)

2) I was dating my brother's best friend, who is now happily married, actually. I used to think that dating was essential in life and that if I didn't have someone who adored me and loved me, I'm a complete and utter failure. 

3) I was helping mum out with business. I loved it when people would come up to us and asked us to choreograph some kind of dance performance. I would always pretend I was Britney Spears - singing and dancing. Secretly, I've always wanted to be in the entertainment industry. 

4) Music's everything to me. I would listen to new songs on MTV all the time. I would blast music while driving. In college, I had headphones on most of the time because I just can't be bothered with anyone. 

5) I had no idea what kind of future I would have. Everything was a blur. It was worse than a blur. I couldn't see anything. I felt scared most of the time because everyone around me seemed to have already planned what they wanted at what age and I was just a walking confusion, trying to exist and be someone my parents wanted me to be. 

Fast forward to this year. Obviously, besides the age factor, I certainly didn't see a pandemic happening.

2020 (embracing my late 20s)

1) My circle of friends have somehow shrunk immensely and I'm okay with that. I really do understand now when people say "You only need a few close friends in your life and you'll be fine." I've managed to keep in contact with a few people from high school and some close friends since 10 years ago. I've made a couple of new friends along the way who are just the most amazing people ever. And my family means almost everything to me now. 

2) I just got out of a turbulent relationship. I know now that sometimes, love alone is not enough. "I love you" can be said a thousand times in a day, but it's more of how someone makes you feel. I am happily single and I adore myself. In a way, I feel like I've gotten a tiny part of myself back.

3) Well, entertainment industry it is. Been on TV a few times, working in a radio station as a radio host, gone on stage to launch products, congratulated brides and grooms on their special days, speak on stage for a living. Wow. I sometimes can't even believe it myself. See, I am an MBA Finance graduate doing what I'm doing now. So, obviously, you don't always end up doing what you studied for in university and that is totally fine. 

4) Music is still everything to me. I just get to do it for a living now which is amazing. I still have headphones on most of the time. See, some things don't change. 

5) I can kind of see what I want for myself and I am working hard to achieve them. To be really honest, nobody really knows what the hell they are doing, me included. I'm still learning new things about myself everyday. But I've learned to live comfortably in my own skin. And even though my future is a blur, I don't feel scared anymore. I feel some form of excitement. Knowing the future would be boring because you already kind of know what to expect. So, I'm taking it as I go which is the amazing part.

Do you see what I mean by not much has happened but at the same time, I've grown into a different person?

Please take care and stay safe x

Hello May

Holy shijmo! How are we already in the 5th month of 2019? Literally! 

I guess it's true what they say. Time flies when you're having fun. And that's exactly how I've been living. Having fun, living life on the edge, hustling, playing.

This morning at work, my co-worker asked me what my plan was for this month, and I said "April's gonna be fun". He looked confused because he also seemed to think it was April.

But I would rather be a "time flies" person than a "stuck in the sands of time" kind of person.

So much has happened within the past 4 months. My life really has been a roller coaster - challenging, rough, beautiful, amazing, beyond-what-I-would've-imagined.

First off, one thing I'm incredibly proud of, I've finally finished my first novel. And even if it's not going to be the best-seller, at least I know I've poured my heart and soul into it and that's the only thing that matters.

Second, I've experienced betrayal and heartbreak first-hand. Yes, obviously. I've ended a friendship. That's a long story for another day but basically, I'm just here to tell you that when someone says "I'll always be here for you", even if it's coming from a 50-year-old, always trust ACTIONS instead of words - unless of course if that person is one of your family members.

The friendship I've had with person has been amazing - a roller coaster ride would be an understatement. It's like you've known that person in a past life or something like that (if you believe in that kind of thing). But of course, I put my trust in the wrong person, thinking he is older and wiser, but that's really not the case. Do I regret knowing this person? Absolutely. Do I regret the experience? No. Because we were best friends at one point. He was someone I'd do almost anything for.

Again, I'm here to tell you that even though there are bad people in this world, people who mistreat you, you can always be the bigger person and let it go. Everything will be OK. Take it from me, someone who's literally been hurt over and over again by that same person.

Thirdly, I've had some of the most beautiful moments meeting people and giving talks. Definitely a shock when I was chosen to be one of the ambassadors for young women for a couple of programs. It definitely made me think about the choices I make and how I present myself to young women. I mean, no one wants someone who's constantly cussing to be an ambassador. So, I definitely took myself more seriously when it comes to influencing young people.

These are just some of the amazing things I've been through in the span of 4 months. But I finally took some time to reflect on my life over the weekend because I do feel like I've been more of a robot instead of a human being lately. So, here are the things I'm focusing on this month (which I've already started):


1) Relax and take a break 

2) Focus more on my health (both physically and mentally)

3) Read more (currently reading Chicken Soup for the Soul) 

4) Be wary of the people I let into my life

5) Spend more time with friends and family 


These are probably things that most people take for granted everyday. That's why I need to constantly remind myself what's important in life and what really makes me feel at peace.

So, I hope your month will be as beautiful as your soul :) 

P/S: Sorry for the hiatus x 

28 THINGS TO DO IN FEBRUARY

Happy February everyone! One month down, 11 more to go! But anyway, I hope January has been good to you. For me, so far so good.

February, as we all know, is the shortest month. So, if you have no idea what to do this month, how about trying some of these small, single tasks. In no particular order, here are 28 things I plan to do this month. 

1. Sit in your favourite cafe alone

2. Go for a nice walk

3. Visit a new cafe/restaurant 

4. If/when stuck in an elevator with someone, ask the person "how are you?"

5. Talk to a stranger (not in a creepy way)

6. Read a book 

7. Do a face mask 

8. Write down how you feel in a journal 

9. Learn a new dance/learn how to dance

10. No technologies for 24 hours

11. Eat a healthy bowl of salad 

12. Learn a new recipe 

13. Go to the cinema

14. Catch up with a friend

15. Cut down on sugar 

16. Create a new playlist

17. Make someone smile/laugh

18. Give genuine compliments 

19. Spring clean your closet 

20. Write a letter to your future self 

21. Wear something in your closet that you've never worn/hardly wear 

22. Call/talk to your family members

23. Try out a new snack 

24. Stretch 

25. Go cafe hopping with a friend

26. Pamper yourself 

27. Help someone in need

28. Visit/volunteer at an animal shelter 

28 days, let's get it.